I knew the name of it, I just didn't want to resort to actually typing something like that. 
Oh so I'm doing the dirty work again. I thought that was over after I hacked up that fellow and dumped him in the river for you, but I guess not.
Composition books? The ones bound with thread? I can't stand those. I think they look cute, but if I feel like I messed up a page, the OCD side of me demands that I rip it out and shred it to bits, and doing that automatically takes out the opposite page on the other side. With a spiral, I can pretend the offending page never existed.
They look like mini-versions of Composition books, and are held together by glue. They are small enough for me to fit them in my back pocket, and you can get them in four packs at like Wal-Mart. I use to use small spiral notebooks, but then every time I sat down the metal coil would dig into my back and make damn near impossible to sit comfortably. The few times I've tried to tear stuff out of it took the cover with it.
I also hate the thread bound notebooks, I only used one once for my writing and that was enough. I was dumb enough to think that the nice little lines on the front would make it really easy to organize cause I could put the name of what I was working on right there on the cover. I also seem to suffer from a minor OCD in the regard, but I tend to tear stuff out and then reorganize it using three ring binders and a three-hole punch. And like you anything that doesn't make the cut has to be totally destroyed. I actually ended up buying one of those 10 sheets at a time shedder because of it. Much faster, but a lot more noisy. One of these days I'll have to take a picture of the bookcase full of binders and the "Inbox" which amounts to a pile of papers on top of said bookcase which havn't been cut down (Which amounts to another OCD of cutting the frayed edge off from the notebook.) and then filed away in it's approiate binder.
It does look a little bit like code, with phrases, situations and drawings messily scribbled on a page, but I prefer it that way. Once I write something on my comp, I get a highlighter or a different colored pen so I can still see through the marking and code a file name over it like "X_9r".) Bothering to be neat is time consuming and I believe not being neat is also a throwback to when I would write and draw in middle school and people would look over my shoulder. I couldn't stand that, and I don't know why. I remember when I first started getting majorly depressed in middle school and I would draw monsters, eyeballs, and flowers (!!) and the few people who saw them thought they were cool. I regret not having opened myself up for more feedback in those days.
I can identify with that. I'll sketch something so fast just to get the idea down that really only I know what it is. It's more a mental not then an actual finished work of some kind, just meant for me.
Opening up to feedback can be a double edged sword in a way. I actually showed a lot of stuff in HS to people and it always got mixed reviews depending on the person. But I actually like it. When I have people read my stuff I tell them to be as brutal as they can, because I don't want them to say something nice just cause they are afraid of hurting my feelings. And as long it's not something like "You're a Douche Bag." Or "This is so gay." I'm usually open to it.
My biggest thing at the moment is I'm paranoid of letting people see what I'm working on. I only let people that I trust read it cause I'm afriad someone will steal it. Like I'd proably let you read it, cause I know you wouldn't do that...but I'd never post it on this board. Or anywhere it could just be looked up on the net by anyone with a search engine. I'd proably send it to someone in an email, but I'd like to avoid it if I could. My ideal is an actual hard copy (be it Manuscript, or saved word file on disk) handed directly to the person I want to read it. I might send it through the mail, but again only if I had to.
But I'm hoping to start working on a treatment here pretty soon and then register it with the Writers Guild of America. They'll keep it on record for 5 years and if anyone else steals you're idea between now and then end of that 5 years, the fact that it's on file with guild will help you're case if you do get ripped off. Cost 40 bucks, but I think it'll be worth it in the long wrong. Then I can be a little more open with my work and also a littlle more open to feedback. As it stands now...I think only 2 people have ever read the full first draft I've written.
