le sigh

[IDE]

So I'm starting to have feelings for this 18 yr old that thinks I'm 23 and I'm never going to see again in 20 days.  I didn't want to have feelings for her but her skin is the softest skin I've ever touched and when we have sex she makes little mogwai sounds in between saying oh my god, oh shit, and you're so big...and it hurts her and she looks up at me with these sad anime doe eyes with her eyebrows in a harried expression as if to say "are you really gonna stab me with that thing again?"

I shouldn't be making this post as it reinforces the reality of me getting all sentimental, but I can't help it.  I'd been trying to stamp out the inkling of these feelings when this morning a girl walks into my room and lays in my bed.  I think it's my 18 yr old but it turns out to be some random chick (lol college) and so I end up just feeling up this new chick a little, but when I thought it was my girl I got extremely happy and when I found out it wasn't her it was a let down...and that's when it hit me, I like this chick and miss having her next to me at night.  So you see I may be a womanizing bastard but I don't callously go about my lechery.  It takes a modicum of mental effort to kill off the all too human emotional response.

[B E C K]

Tell her how you feel.  Even if she shoots you down, it won't matter in 20 days, will it?

[IDE]

I suppose as some sort of experiment I could break the cardinal rule and tell her.

[B E C K]

Depending on how it turns out, you can make it the script for your first movie.

[Rama]

What's the worse that can happen. She can rip out your heart and stomp on it right in front of you. That won't be that bad will it?

[IDE]

My heart is stuffed with saw dust anyway.

[Wickedly Yours E]

I would think you'd be used to that anyway by now.

[Bernie AKA]

I agree - go for it.  Say something like,"Maybe it's for the best that you're leaving because you're really starting to get to me."  You're not totally committing, but it's extremely flattering, and opens a possiblity.  If nothing else, you're sure to have another lovely evening.

And I'd get a lock on that door before a jealous boyfriend wanders in.

[The D]

For some reason I find this story extremely amusing... maybe it's just because it's coming from him out of all people, the one last person on the planet I expected to have feelings for any girl.












Or maybe it's just the thing about the random woman walking into his room.

[Rama]

I agree - go for it.  Say something like,"Maybe it's for the best that you're leaving because you're really starting to get to me."  You're not totally committing, but it's extremely flattering, and opens a possiblity.  If nothing else, you're sure to have another lovely evening.

Oh that is such a good line.

[Derrick]

Lies never win. She will dump your ass soooooooo fast.

[IDE]

So I told her...

and now her soul is mine.

Looks like the lies are winning so far.

Even if she somehow finds out and leaves me it won't matter because I know that based on what she believes right now she's in love with me.

We're going to dinner or we might bbq later I don't care which because I'm kira and I've won.

[Rodent of Unusual Size]

"mogwai"

[IDE]

I just saw gremlins 2 and that's exactly what it sounds like!

(what an 80s cheese fest that movie was)

Anyways I'm taking her to play mini golf now...

I've decided to tell her that I talked to my academic advisor and they told me I don't need to do any more course work and can just do an internship to graduate (she thinks I graduate next year)...then I'll break the news that I'm doing the internship in LA.

The bizzare thing is that while I could have slammed out her and her friend in a 3some the other night...I didn't...and when I show you pics you will think I've lost my mind.  But for some reason I don't want to let this girl down (she told me the next day she was relieved that I didn't take the friend up on the offer).