The Sphere
General Garbage => Tropical Paradise of Hard Shelled Fruits => Topic started by: Wickedly Yours E on Dec 20, 2006, 09:39:23 PM
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The advent of Christmas has brought my mind to an overall speculation of the happenings of this year and what I've learned, what I've lost, what I've gained, plagues my thoughts.
I've lost a lot of my naivete, my innocence. I've learned the true nature of the concept of "family", I've gained a deeper appreciation of "love" in the familial and brotherly sense, nay even in the romantic ideal. All of these revelations, these epiphanies, stem from the abhorrent countenance andactions of supposed "Blood relatives".
I believe in forgiveness, yet I have little faith in Redemption. I believe Redemption to be a concept propagated by people who seek forgiveness through action rather than understanding what was committed was wrong, yet even if I did hold value in this ideal, the relative in question can not, will never, be redeemable in anyone's eyes.
The corruption of a damaged, helpless mind is contemptable, yet when the mind is of your own blood, nay, your own father, is turned against a brother over pettiness, arrogance, this must give the most saintly spirit pause to the soul of such a creature that would commit such a sin against family. To continue the manipulations and machinations, to have purposefully created rifts between sister and mother, father and son, to know the extent of the web of deceit stretches back decades, to just see the poison that ebbs from a single person's soul, how can you not look upon this evil and not be changed forever? How can you not lose a little piece of yourself when you see the agony one poisoned wraith wrecks upon your loved ones?
The machinations have led to true examination of the bloodline by me, and the secrets thus revealed. What greed can do to someone, what addiction, what thoughtlessness can twist a loving soul into doing...my eyes have always been open, but now they see the truth a little bit more.
To change the legalized dying wishes of a beloved, if not blood related, family member, to see the willful indulgence of poison into one's body, to revile in absolute sloth with the sufferance of others around you, laid ontop of the manipulations, lies, and mental anguish, could make a person lose faith in love and family entirely.
I've lost my ideology: "family" does not come first, "blood" is not thicker than water. I lost the part of me that clung to the belief that, though family may be flawed, they are your family and should be loved as such. I weep for this lost innocence, for never again will I be that pure in thought, belief, and nature; Never again.
Yet, in this loss, I gain a new religion, a new ideology based on the ashes of the old; Family is what you make it. There is a new, deeper love I feel, I understand, for the people around me who feel genuine love for me, whether it be familial or brotherly. These souls are my family, Who I've chosen to share my life and love with, whether they be blood or friends, they are important to me. I value love and friendship in a deeper, more soulful, way that I never could have without the betrayal and pain caused by sick, twisted souls. Such souls will never understand such blessings of "Love", "Friendship", and "Family".
I am pained, but I am blessed, and though I'm unsure as to which I'd rather be, I must accept both and move forward, for dwelling in the past is the first step in the path to the corruption, the twisting of the sould, that caused all that's happened.
Sincerely,
Lance Park
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I'm confused, who are you mad at? Your father?
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-_- Relatives like The Aunt in Question. Eeesh.
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I remember you disliking your aunt, but I didn't see any direct mention of her up there. You couldn't have thrown in a "my aunt, the bitch" for those of us not up to speed on the Park Family Drama?
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I like the blanket statement.
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Aunt Park?
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You mean you havn't been keeping up with CBS's new hit sitcom..."The Parks"?
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You suck Rama.
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This thread illustrates why blogs were invented.
I believe Redemption to be a concept propagated by people who seek forgiveness through action rather than understanding what was committed was wrong, yet even if I did hold value in this ideal, the relative in question can not, will never, be redeemable in anyone's eyes.
Redemption results from forgiveness on the part of the offended and repentence on the part of the offender. But while repentance is up to the other person, you have a responsibility to that person (like 'em or not) as well as to yourself to forgive. Otherwise it eats at your soul like a cancer...so, if not for them, do it for yourself. It's apparent from your post that this is what's happened to you.
I've lost my ideology: "family" does not come first, "blood" is not thicker than water.
Family remains a primal relationship, and that's precisely why it hurts so badly and why it's important to do your part in forgiving the wrong. The old saying, "you can pick your friends but not your family," is true, but you can choose with whom you spend your time and energies.
Yet, in this loss, I gain a new religion, a new ideology based on the ashes of the old; Family is what you make it.
Out of curiousity, what was your old religion? Because if you change what's important to you based on how you and yours are treated, you're certainly going to be disappointed again in the future, and probably sooner than you imagine.
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You suck Rama.
I try.
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This thread illustrates why blogs were invented.
But E's cool, he can totally vent here. Not like Doug and his "Dear Diary, I saw another really hot nine-year-old today."
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This thread illustrates why blogs were invented.
:lol: :lol: snaapP!
I'll never forget when E said that IIIIIII, IIIIIIIII was always complaining about shit here. Yeah sure, when have I ever complained about my life.
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I am incapable of forgiveness right now, But I'm working on it.
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It will get better.
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Once can only hope.
PS: Faye, Shoosh.
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This thread illustrates why blogs were invented.
:lol: :lol: snaapP!
I'll never forget when E said that IIIIIII, IIIIIIIII was always complaining about shit here. Yeah sure, when have I ever complained about my life.
shut yuo and post your clit ring!
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I would never EVER pierce my clit! it's the hood. fuck.
edit: Anyways, drunk IDE, i don't think E would appreciate you changing his topic to hoohahs
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I spend a good deal of my day keeping sharp things away from my genitals.
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E is faye right? Do you not want your topic changed to hoohahs? I always thought that hoohahs were the icecream of topic derailment i.e. everyone loves it and is ready to have a party with it at a moments notice.
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E is faye right? Do you not want your topic changed to hoohahs? I always thought that hoohahs were the icecream of topic derailment i.e. everyone loves it and is ready to have a party with it at a moments notice.
I am offended by that allegation, sir.
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see! he's offended by the mere thought that someone would think he didn't want his topic changed to hoohas.
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No, I'm offended that you assume I am Faye. That's a killin' offense right there, Mr. Alcohol-Blood-Content-of-.25!
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IDE doesn't know that comas exist. He meant "E, is Faye right?"
Wtf you wish you were me, I'm hot and with a rocking ass
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IDE doesn't know that comas exist. He meant "E, is Faye right?"
Wtf you wish you were me, I'm hot and with a rocking ass
Cept I'd be a lesbian. Cause, yanno, Me no likey the wang.
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Don't knock it till you've tried it!
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In the ass, of course.
IDE doesn't know that comas exist. He meant "E, is Faye right?"
Being that he's drunk so often, I'm sure he's aware that comas exist. He's probably in a comatose state on a regular basis.
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Faye loses this round!
And I'd bet donuts to dollars IDE's drunk RIGHT NOW!
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I hope those we're cheap gas station donuts because I've been sober all day. The girl I was supposed to hang with had a girl's night going away party for her friends going to columbia. But tommorow I shall be wasted (and balls deep inside of her if all goes well).
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In the ass, of course.
IDE doesn't know that comas exist. He meant "E, is Faye right?"
Being that he's drunk so often, I'm sure he's aware that comas exist. He's probably in a comatose state on a regular basis.
Would you say he was "comma-tose"? Hyuck, that's a Jumble right there!
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Faye loses this round!
cut me Nick, cut me Nickk
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She said no...or rather not yet...what the fuck is that noise?
The siege of Jacky has begun! I'm going to invite her over here to tommorow. Everyone is going to be gone until tommorow night. Hopefully Grond will smash down her resistances and pillaging will commence.
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No one wants to hear about your man-whoring!
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Seconded.
All in favor say "Aye".
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Eye eye.
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But my penis is the Witch King of Aglarond!
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I thought it was the breeding ground of Unholy things.
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Seconded.
All in favor say "Aye".
Word. His stories are as annoying as doug's bitching about everything. Nuri, you should prohibit him from talking about that shit!
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Nuri doesn't prohibit anyone from saying anything. If that was the case, then not only would IDE be gone, but so would Doug (Who kind of is as far as I know), Joe, Me, and you.
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Don't forget me ^_^ V
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The rest of the INTERNET happens to love my stories, but if they annoy Faye then I'll just have to...
DIG UP SOME CLASSICS FROM '03! THAT WAS A HELLUVA YEAR!
Also, Tom hook me up with one of your girlfriends anime lovin friends while I'm down here plzkthx.
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What about the "I hate Ide's stories" newsgroup? Do they love your stories? I think not!
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Nuri doesn't prohibit anyone from saying anything. If that was the case, then not only would IDE be gone, but so would Doug (Who kind of is as far as I know), Joe, Me, and you.
Well she said that tom shouldn't talk about his sex life and he is not doing it anymore! so she def can do the same with this guy here.
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God dammit Faye! You say that and you know Tom's gonna start up again!!!
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I don't do it that much, do I?
*whimpers*
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You can't make a thread about piercing your crotch and then ask for sanctions on someone else in the name of decency.
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That's not how this started...it's just what it degrated into.
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You can't make a thread about piercing your crotch and then ask for sanctions on someone else in the name of decency.
Never ever fuck with the clitoral hood.
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I didn't make a thread about it! You mentioned it so I just provided a fact. Then I stopped the discussion by saying we shouldn't change the topic.
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Seriously though, I think I might score a threesome tonight with a 18 year old.
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I didn't mean this thread I meant the one you made when you got it done. The one that needs pics.
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Were you even here when I did that thread?
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yep
also, good work tom. My first kiss of the new year was to a 32 yr old woman. I think it aged me...I need to return to my stash of 18 yr olds in never never land.
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32? Jesus H Christ.
x.x
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yep
also, good work tom. My first kiss of the new year was to a 32 yr old woman. I think it aged me...I need to return to my stash of 18 yr olds in never never land.
She was 2 years your Senior! OH MY GOD YOU SHOULD JUST KILL YOURSELF NOW! God knows the only thing that can wash that shame away is swapping spit with someone a decade your junior.
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Older women are hot.
then not only would IDE be gone, but so would Doug (Who kind of is as far as I know)
How do you know that wasn't me? :evil:
Okay, yeah, so it wasn't. Whateva.
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You should have stuck with the lie. Fear will keep the local systems in line...fear of your Adm. powers.
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They already know I almost never use them.
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Well there is the chance that one day you'll snap and begin to rule with an Iron Fist, or at least I'd like to think so. *Le Sigh*
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Whore.
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yep
also, good work tom. My first kiss of the new year was to a 32 yr old woman. I think it aged me...I need to return to my stash of 18 yr olds in never never land.
She was 2 years your Senior! OH MY GOD YOU SHOULD JUST KILL YOURSELF NOW! God knows the only thing that can wash that shame away is swapping spit with someone a decade your junior.
:lol:
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^_^
Awesome, s'all I have to say.